Showing posts with label Pancreatic Cancer. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Pancreatic Cancer. Show all posts

Sunday, July 24, 2016

Focusing

Today's world can make it very challenging to keep our main focus where it needs to be. Too often things of the world move to the foreground and matters of the heart become somewhat blurred as we run through the busyness of our days, barely able to catch a breath. No matter who we are, where we live, what we spend our time doing, it happens to all of us at some point. Life just takes hold of us from behind, it would seem, and steers us along before we realize it.
But suddenly there are those things, or moments, that come along and cause us to stop in our tracks. They give us pause and fill our hearts to overflowing again. Like holding a newborn baby in our arms whether it be our own child or our grandchild. Breathing in that sweet smell... So fresh from God... Well, there's nothing that really even compares to it. Suddenly all the fibers of our being are at once more calmed and somehow more fully alive at the same time. Deep down inside we have the comfort of knowing that this moment will be ours for a lifetime. These are the things that soften and shape us. They are our blessings and joys along this pathway of life.
Then there are those times when life throws us an unexpected curve.
Anyone who has either had cancer or been touched by it closely knows what I mean here. One moment we are sailing along, then the next moment ... well... there's a bolder in the road. What I'd like to say is this, we already know all of the bad things that go along with this dreaded illness but what some people may not realize is that, as in all things we struggle with in this world, there are good things that come out of it as well.
Although my husband still has a rash that comes and goes from the massive amount of radiation treatments he received and his energy level is not what it used to be, I stand in awe of all he is and does and can accomplish. Of course, I have to say, I have always felt this way about him really.
But let me insert this here, cancer never leaves anyone unchanged.
Scott has always been gentle natured, tender hearted, soft spoken and is more concerned for others than he is for himself. God put all of those things in his original blueprint. I have watched him, however, in the nearly five years since his battle with pancreatic cancer, and I see all of these things fine tuned to an even greater perfection in him. He laughs more often, hugs his children and grandchildren a little longer and tighter than even before. He cries with abandon when he is moved to do so. He has an endless well of compassion for others. He spends countless hours taking care of everyone in the family, including me. He never complains about anything. I believe he enjoys his family on a deeper level now. I think he pauses more often to soak in the beauty around him.
I'm not saying it's ever easy to go through any hardship that life brings our way. What I am saying is that God really does bring good out of it all though. He reminds us to focus in on what matters most in life. He fine tunes our character and softens our rough edges. Trust me, I got some much needed repair work throughout the whole process as well. One thing I know for sure is that I'd like to be just like my husband when I grow up someday; full of kindness. What else really matters in this world we wander after all, more than our kindness towards each other?
Nothing I can think of.

One last thing I would like to share with you is this hat I just finished knitting.
As I have walked from room to room at the Peoria Cancer Center I've noticed baskets in each room that are full of handmade hats for the patients to help themselves to. I decided that the next time I go with my sister, which will be tomorrow, I wanted to have something to toss in one of those baskets. God has blessed me abundantly and I want to give back in this very small way. So I knitted a hat. I used Knit Picks Organic Cotton thinking it would be a good choice for patients going through treatments because I know oftentimes their skin can be sensitive. This fiber is ultra soft and the cotton was grown organically. This is its natural color, free of dye. There are no chemicals whatsoever on this yarn. I hope my small gift is a blessing to someone special.
It's the very least I can do.

"What is desirable in a man is his kindness..."
John 19:22

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

A Harvest of Good Things

Once again it's
Pumpkin
time
here in the
Pumpkin Capital of the World!
Our Pumpkin Festival
started today
and runs through Saturday.
I, of course, look forward mostly
to the
Craft Sale
on the last day :)))
Living here and being surrounded by
pumpkin mania
this time of year
keeps me on the constant lookout
for new pumpkin patterns.
I love this one they gave me at my
LYS.
I did tweak it a bit here and there {naturally}.
It has been a fun pattern to work with.
Cute, huh?!

And on a personal note~
My Mother~In~Law
is doing better,
however,
due to her age she has some
longstanding health issues
 that will be with her always now.
I still keep a close watch on her,
take her to all doctor appointments
and fill her medication keeper each week.
I am so thankful she lives next door to me.
And I thank each one of you for your kind comments,
concern,
&
prayers.
It means so much.

Also, I had a new experience today.
For the first time I gave myself an injection.
The doctor put me on Enbrel for my RA.
Rather than going into the office for a weekly injection,
I opted to self inject.
It went quite well.
I feel just fine.
Much better than when I was on Methotrexate {UGH!!!}
So~
So far so good.
I have high hopes for this medication
and
who knows
maybe next year
I
will win the Golfing Championship
{maybe I should learn to golf first...}.

And one more thing~
Tomorrow we hit the 2 year mark from Scott's Pancreatic Cancer.
Can I get a good
AMEN!!!

I pray this finds you all
Happy
Healthy
&
Blessed.

With Love,
Danette

Friday, September 7, 2012

Knitting Through the Storm


I woke up this morning to a great, glorious storm. Loud peals of thunder  rumbling through the sky, rain pelting the house and lightening crackling in the heavens. I don't know about you, but I like a good storm. And we have need of some rain. Of course I don't live in the path of a hurricane so I don't have that fear. We do get some serious tornados in our area from time to time however. That being said though, this has not been one of those years, thankfully.

On a personal note though.....it's been a stormy year. August 25th marked one year ago that we were told my husband had a "large mass" on his pancreas. On September 12th it will be one year since they surgically removed that mass, 60% of his pancreas and his spleen. Then they followed up with radiation treatments. In the midst of all that my RA took a serious turn for the worse {uh... Go Figure} and both of our daughters got married and left home within 6 months of each other.
WHEW! It's been a rough year at sea!
One of the reasons I mention all of this today is because actually,
 we have cause to celebrate on this day. Today is my husbands 52nd birthday!
 A year ago, I must admit, I wasn't sure he'd be here for this one. 
Pancreatic Cancer is one of the Big Boys.
.
We are PRAISING GOD today, and every day, that he IS here and CANCER FREE.

One of the things that remains constant for me
 {except when the RA flares to the point I have to take a break ~
 but that is even doing better lately :) }
 is that no matter what life throws at me, I just keep knitting through the storm.  
And as I knit, I pray....and pray....and pray.
I give thanks that we have made it through this year and pray we won't have to go through another one like it. I also give thanks for the family and friends who have been through the thick of it with us.
And I want to extend a special THANK YOU to all of you who take the time to chat with me here in Blogland. It has been my HAPPY PLACE. And I have needed that so much more than any of you know. You have lifted my spirits and given me something positive to focus on. You have given me a purpose to my day, kept me inspired and made me smile. And trust me ~ that is no small thing.
May you all be RICHLY BLESSED. 
I hold you all in a special place in my heart and enjoy the glimpse into your world each day.
So really ~ seriously ~ Thank each and every one of you. :)
I will see you all sometime next week.
We're going to spend the weekend CELEBRATING!